DAME Deborah James says she is “living in limbo” but enjoying every day as much as possible.
The mum-of-two says she is in a very “stressful and uncertain place”, given she continues to outlive her survival odds.
Debs stopped treatment for her incurable bowel cancer – diagnosed in 2016 – at the start of May because her body could no longer cope.
She is receiving palliative care at her parents house in Woking, surrounded by her family and making as many memories as possible.
But the optimistic 40-year-old joked that she “ain’t dead yet”, despite expecting to have passed away weeks ago.
Trending In The News writer wrote on her Instagram: “I find myself living in limbo land, not really knowing what the future holds and for how long.
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“It’s a very stressful uncertain place to be because when I was discharge from hospital over a month ago I was given days, maybe a week to live. And I felt like it.
“But as we all know life doesn’t go according to plan, so I’m just greatful for what ever extra time, the powers that be have decided to grant me.
“So despite the unnerving tears, I look at the sunshine, smile, and think, wow, life is a funny thing isn’t it!! Better enjoy it! [sic].”
Debs has spent her final days doing everything she can to raise money for her newly launched Bowelbabe Fund, despite being exhausted.
She is making the most of time with her two children, Hugo, 14, and Eloise, 12, who she shares with husband Seb.
And yesterday, she had an impromptu trip to Ascot with her brother and brother Benjamin James and his fiancé Ashley Hall.
She said: “Yesterday was really special as with a lot of effort and help I actually made it to @ascotracecourse once again.
“I honestly have to pinch myself that I’ve been well enough each day to do something like this.
“Another favourite I’d had in mind and a fab milestone to say “ain’t dead yet!
“Obviously like most haven’t been for a while due to covid, but so nice to be back and thank you to @ascotracecourse for making the whole experience for me and my brother just seemless and achievable for me.
“Memories made, but most importantly I got 3 wins in a row and am still bouncing off the ceiling from them still!!!”
Debs told Trending In The News she usually goes to Ascot with her girlfriends every year, but never expected to make it this time around.
The former teacher is currently confined to a wheelchair and said: “Given the fact I’m lucky to still be here, I thought I’d have a bet,” she added.
“What have I got to lose?
“I won three out of the four races I bet on, I made my money back and maybe covered the petrol home. It looks like my lucky streak continues.”
It came after Dame Debs attended Glyndebourne opera house on Saturday to see La bohème.
Opera-lover Debs explained she was “trying to see a few of her favourites one last time”.
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She also said she was “working my way through all old school cocktails day-by-day before I’m gone”, posting photos of Sex on the Beach and Bloody Mary’s.
Over the weekend, Debs’ fund reached £6.7million, and she’s close to hitting £1million through sales of her Rebellious Hope T-shirt alone.
